I’ve recently started working as a proofreader. I work from home and have control over my work hours. I go over 5 to 6 thousand words per day.

Some days are great and I get everything done fairly quickly.

But some days, like today, are pretty awful.

I don’t understand how some of these people are allowed to write these texts. I think they didn’t go through any copywriting training and just did some test to get the job.

I start reading and have absolutely no idea what they are trying to say. I lose so much time going through references and the internet in general, just trying to find out the meaning of a single sentence. I feel like they also have no idea what they wanted to write.

And as I am a nervous mess, and somewhat of a perfectionist, I can’t let these awful copies go out like that. I don’t want to be responsible for that chaos. So sometimes I spend 10 hours trying to fix their incompetence.

And I just went through a mild panic attack because I had two bad texts in a row and I can’t figure out how to fix them. I just left them for later, but I’ll have to do them eventually and I’m already dreading the moment.

Of course, that ruined the day for me already and I still have six other texts to go through. I really don’t know how to deal with this and how to focus.

Plus, I’m on my period and it’s like 40 degrees.


So I didn’t get that job. 

I felt less nervous than I thought I would going there. The interview went well, but they said that there were a few more candidates, and they will let me know later.

I didn’t really feel nervous after it, because it was out of my hands. There was nothing I did wrong, I did well on the written part and I looked completely normal during the interview.

However, they let me know a few hours later that they went with someone else, but will keep my info in case they need someone again soon.

So, all in all, it was stressful, but I think I won’t lose sleep over it. At least I tried.

It just kinda sucks, because I already started planning where I’m going to live, and how I’m going to travel, and how I’ll start going to the gym

Applying for a Job

A week ago I sent my CV not really knowing what to expect. I applied for the same position before I finished uni and was not contacted about it. This time I got a return e-mail, asking me to do a test and they’ll be in touch, and today they told me they’d like to conduct an interview because I did well on the test.

Now, I do not live in the city anymore, but I go there for uni on weekends, I wrote about this earlier, and was thinking about moving full-time if I found a job. And as I wrote earlier, I get very nervous about travelling, and this weekend, the added stress will really do me in.

I was going to travel on Friday afternoon and finally I thought I got my head straight, but now I have to travel in the morning and will probably not sleep again.

I wasn’t really sleeping well these past few days, I don’t know if it’s because of the job, or if I’m just tired of the same old routine.

I am looking forward to moving, so I don’t have to think about the three hours train rides and not knowing what to do with my brain.

But all in all, I will probably get there out of breath, nauseous, dehydrated, and shaking. I don’t know should I just straight out say that I’m a very nervous person and not very good with people, and that is exactly why this job is good for me, because you do everything in an office, on a laptop, or just pretend to be normal.

I just somewhat wish I had someone to travel with, someone to calm me down before the interview, someone, just someone…

this wasn’t that much about applying but just generally about everything happening right now